Three years of LJ and I finally became one of "those" people...all entries from here on out will be Friends Only.

Getting into the reasons why just isn't worth the trouble. If you're my friend, you'll see everything else. If not, well...

Tally was great. I got there around 9 on Sunday night and crashed at my parents. Then yesterday, got up and went over and hung out with Taber and Amanda and then Jaime. We had Barnaby's (which was still good damnit!) and then went to Jaime's house and saw her umm...new house. It's totally the house I want - old, wood floors, porch and all sorts of stuff. I really hope I can find/afford one down here sometime soon.

Then I went to the FSU/Miami game...oh my god, that was awesome. The game itself was pretty boring because all the scoring was in the first half, but the last 10 minutes were some of the most exciting that I've ever witnessed. And when Miami's kicker bobbled that ball...wow, I've never heard such an explosion of noise, heh. Leaving the stadium, the whole thing was SHAKING and you couldn't hear anything but a roar...I couldn't hear well for a few minutes after that, hehe. Then we went home and I didn't go to bed till 2. Woke up this morning at 7 and drove for 5 hours to go to work in Brandon today. Then I left around 7:30 and went to Publix, came home and am now about to crash completely. 5 hours of sleep + 5 hours of driving + a lingering cold = no fun. Many kudos to Alyse for taking care of the cats too btw...not like she ever really reads LJ anymore, but still, lol.

And...goodnight!

Ok, gas officially sucks. Almost all the gas stations within ten miles of my house are out of gas. I managed to find a 7 Eleven with some gas and filled my tank to overflow and as soon as I was done, the attendant came out and put a bag over the handle. He said they are getting more late tonight but I bet that the price will hit over $4 a gallon later this weekend. So now I'm going to drive to and from work till Sunday and that's it, cuz I gotta save what I can till when I leave for Tally after work on Sunday. I really really really hope that I can find gas somewhere along the way, cuz from what I hear most of Tally is low too. Ugh, thinking about all of this gives me a headache/anxiety.

Wasn't the war in Iraq supposed to LOWER gas prices and give us more? I mean, I know Katrina did a terrible number on the gas supply but you'd think we'd have access to more of it by now...

I keep hearing about Hurricane Katrina and it's like it gets worse and worse every time I hear. Those poor people - a million people homeless for months and months, water that is completely contaminated and filled with dead bodies, looting going on every where and a city that will basically be abandoned for 2-3 months. It's like something out of a movie, and yet even when they rebuild, there isn't going to be anywhere for the city to go...they can't make the thing higher afterall.

Mostly though, I hope my friend Kaila's family is ok. They live outside of Baton Rouge, but I don't know if they will be able to go back anytime soon.

In other news, gas sucks. I HAD to pick this weekend to drive 500 miles. I'll probably spend $60 on gas for the whole fucking trip. Grrrrrr.

I had a pretty good weekend - went out on Friday night with Alyse and Will and Jose to Sacred Grounds and had a good time till 2 in the morning. Then Saturday, after a good (sales) day at work, I went out with Becky (the girl) to Friday's and we had drinks. I'm really dating impared I think, because I don't have all the signals down. Things went good I think, but it's always hard to tell with me - I sometimes look for more than what is there. Then yesterday, I had the day off and saw The 40 Year Old Virgin (hilarious) and Red Eye (pretty good, but a bit underwhelming) and then went to a party with all the BTG people at this place called Bahama Breeze. It was fun, but I don't think that anyone who doesn't sell blinds would enjoy it, lol.

This morning I watched the last episode of Six Feet Under. This has always been one of my favorite shows, and I will admit I felt really sad as it ended. For a show about death and all, it really celebrated life and the characters were so strong that, well, you get choked up when you find out what happens to them all. It's left me feeling melancholy I think, knowing that everything ends in this life and that we have to make do with what we can and do what makes us happy. Most days I feel like I'm going the right way, but a lot of times I don't know. I see this great big world around me and everyone is finding something in it to propel them, but I still feel stuck on the launch pad. I just want to feel really happy again, feel like there is someone who cares about me, to start a life with someone and experience it with someone else, rather than just me in my head. I know it's coming, I know we all have to pay our dues to get there, but that doesn't mean we can't wish for it to get here faster and faster. To me, it's not coming fast enough.

Alyse talked about on Friday how she is done with the internet thing, done with LJ and all of that. In a way, it makes me sad. We are all growing up and we are all moving on. Taber and Amanda are happy, and his life is changing - not as many movies, not as much time, no one to bounce his sarcasm off of. And me? Well, I'm living the single life alone, save for the cats, and still feeling like adulthood is right around the corner. I realize that this is it - I will work till I can work no more, and hope that things before then will be enough to have made this a life, a life worth really living and celebrating. I know that it will, but sometimes I still feel doubts.

Happy Monday.